I’ve been going through a divorce since last year around may when he left me while pregnant.. that was one of the hardest time in my life but I recently found out he was cheating and got the woman pregnant and To make matters worse it’s a girl and they’re naming her the name my grandmother came up with if we ever had a daughter .. it just hurts so bad from him leaving me , talking to me any kind of way , playing with my emotions everything . My baby is 5 months and the girl is 5 months pregnant.. he left me one week after I gave birth because he knew he was messing around on me . Even when he asked for a divorce he made it seem like we could work things out and we were still having sex . Having sex with two kids women and she knew about me and my well being of carrying a child and us having a toddler together ... this is the same woman who he cheated on me with the first time and left me for 3 months in 2019 so I guess I shouldn’t be surprised he’d do it again. I know I always wanted to have a little girl and to get pregnant with our second child it be another boy of course I was sad at first but I was happy he was healthy ! Then to find out he is having a baby with her and it’s a girl I can’t stop thinking about it . They even went public and we’re not even divorced yet . My heart aches all the time it’s been 9 months since he left home and 5 months since he left the state to be with her .. he doesn’t help me financially he doesn’t call to check on my boys he acts as if he has no other responsibilities and except where he is now . My babies don’t deserve this . Why do people do this ?I’m literally starting off from nothing . I’m home with my grandma and two babies and have no idea what to do next .I just feel like I have so much weight on my shoulders . I can’t have a mediocre life because that means the boys will as well .. I planned on going to school and that’s not gonna work out at least for now because it doesn’t work with my schedule I can’t do full time school and work full time it’s not something realistic I should do right now .I have to work to support my self and boys ..I think it hurts the worst because of the principle I have two ! We were married and you couldn’t respect me enough to wrap it up let alone wait until the divorce is final .. He’s out living life mean while it’s like I’m stuck ... I’m stressed all the time I never wanted a life like this .. I never wanted to be a single mom let alone be divorced at 21 ... my mind never stops racing I’m always thinking about what can I do next ... how will I make something work ... I’m sorry this is long but no one doesn’t know what goes on behind closed doors so I always get looked at crazy by the way I act and feel