A week ago I got my 4 wisdom teeth extracted, all at the same time. The extraction itself wasn’t painful at all but I heard each tooth coming off...it sounds like when you slowly break a wooden stick in half, like you can hear it slowly tear...and that sound was traumatizing. I tried to stay calm because my mom does not tolerate my crying (and never has) let alone a panic attack.

Today I went back to the dentist to remove the sutures and they found out I had an infection and they had to open up my gums and scrape all the infected tissue off...and Yes that traumatized me because they couldn’t get the anesthesia to work properly so I felt that thing scraping the roots of my teeth and I felt the needle giving me stitches

I came out unable to speak, shaking and crying and my mom just kept telling me to shut up and behave properly. Back in the car I completely lost it.

I coudnt talk or see or anything, I wasn’t in much pain but I was psychologically affected by the procedure and my mom kept telling me to stop being so dramatic, that those things can happen to everyone.

I’m still very nervous but at least I stopped crying...I don’t know what to do. I want a hug. I want my bloody best friend who decided to move to fucking Boston. I want my mom to understand IAM NOT OK. MY MIND IS NOT PROCESSING THIS CORRECTLY AND I AM NOT IN CONTROL OF THIS SITUATION

And I can’t talk to her because she’ll victimize herself and make me feel guilty...

If it matters I’m almost 20 and it’s the first time I have a panic attack. And at the moment I have a iodine-soaked gauze sewn inside of my gums

Also can someone reply and just tell me I’ll be fine and maybe some advice? I need some emotional support here