Perhaps this is a taboo subject, but wondered if there are any other mums out there who feel or have felt how I do?

I’m a very proud mum to two little boys, however have always dreamt of having a little girl. I am 21 weeks pregnant again and it’s another little boy.

Let me start by saying, I always wanted more than two children so this baby is not a disappointment, however my partner only wants three and so I now am coming to terms with the fact that I will never get to experience having a little girl. Obviously theres no guarantee however many babies you have and you keep going forever.

I feel like I’m grieving for a baby that I’ll never have and feel mixed emotions now I know the gender.

I know three little boys will be amazing and I’m so blessed and very lucky to have the family I have. I just cant pretend that I don’t feel really rather upset that I’ll never have a little girl. It’s all I’ve dreamt of and always assumed it would happen for me.

Has anyone else felt this way or am I just being awful?