Relationship

Hey guys, I have a question. Idk what love is, but there is only one person I have ever lobed or came close to. We have been on and off for four years, I have done things and so has he. He recently came back into my life, this year 2021. I swore to myself I wouldn’t get back with him, because even though there is love, there is hurt that I’m still not over from him. But, I want him.

I know my friends will be mad, and I feel like I shouldn’t, but I really do miss him and I want to try see where things go, as long as we are open and honest as we should. What do you think I should do?

Please help🥺

Can someone help? Please ?