I had a miscarriage last summer first miscarriage everything was so crazy it happened so fast but it really traumatized me and at that point I was just like okay no more kids I can't go through this again I was already crying every time we went to the bathroom for 3 months and I definitely didn't want to put myself through that again. Last week I noticed that I was a few days late for my period so I took a pregnancy test and it was positive so I took seven more and they were positive and my first thought was great! like wow this is crazy! but then once I actually let it set in I automatically was sick to my stomach afraid of what can happen I literally have paid attention to every single ache and pain I've had I'm so afraid to have a miscarriage my everything feels heavy it feels like everything's just going to fall out of me I don't remember feeling like this I don't know if it's just the nerves or if I'm just overthinking but everything feels way too good to be true or like I don't deserve it. After I had my miscarriage it really hit me hard in my self-worth it made me feel like wow like I didn't deserve this so you know what is life I don't know but it automatically sent me into a depression and now I'm so worried about that happening again I'm not even looking forward to being pregnant but then I am but then I don't want myself to get my hopes up. I just don't know what to think. I'm scared. I hope this one makes it or I will most likely feet my tubes tied.