Last two nights I have had dreams about getting positive pregnancy tests. I was just at the gynecologist on Friday and was told I am not pregnant. They did a urine test and I had an exam, so pretty sure they are correct. My dreams are just messing with me so bad right now. In my dreams I am even saying “and the doctor said I was not pregnant, guess they were wrong”. He did say that my cycle should start up again soon. Over a year pp and breastfeeding is still keeping it away. Just want to be able have a chance again, it takes us some time under normal conditions let alone not having a period at all. I just went in because I was feeling run down and tired and just constantly eating. Thought there was a possibility I was pregnant, or if not want to see if they could do bloodwork to check my vitamin levels. We did talk about my mood though. I let him know I just had no motivation, was just tired all the time, my sex drive is really not there, and how my son asked me why I don’t smile so much anymore. I just figured that the isolation of Covid and being a SAHM was getting to me, and once winter was over and we could do more and get out more I would be better. However, he has now also prescribed me an antidepressant to try out.

Sorry for the long rant all over the place, just early morning blues.