I’m gonna get a lot of hate but I’m at a dead end I feel like I tried everything I have a 3 year old a 2 year old and a 6 month old for some reason I was never able to bond with my oldest still to this day I can’t stand to be around him I can’t even be in the same room as him he ruins any happiness I have he’s loud he’s bad he’s speech delayed won’t potty train but rubs poop all over the walls in his room I thought it was postpartum making me feel like this but it’s been 3 years and I have a great bond with my other two kids I can’t understand it I tried to explain it to his dad but he thinks I’m just a bitch who doesn’t like my kid but believe me I feel like I tried everything please help I don’t want to break my family up but I can’t keep going like this