Teen miscarriage!!

At 14 years old and had 2 miscarriages and I’m still sad about it no my parents don’t know I miscarried in my bathroom twice last year one at 7w4d and another at 9w I feel so depressed and alone. And sometimes it gets really hard. No I’m not proud of it but things happens and I was forced and pressed to do things I didn’t want to!! Since only my friends know and parents don’t what are somethings y’all did to heal with y’all miscarriages?