I’m falling love

Recently, I started to develop feelings for one of my best friends. He’s been there for me through the toughest time in my life. I confessed my feelings to him about a month ago. And we have been hanging out nonstop(not out of the ordinary for us). Here’s the thing, we come from the same background but he’s very religious and I am not. I’ve had sex and he hasn’t yet. We kissed for the first time this weekend and he kind of freaked out for a little bit but then he calmed down and we continued. We didn’t end up doing anything but oh my lord I am horny as fuck. All I can think about day and night is what I wanted to happen that night. At the same time, I don’t want to do anything with him and he regrets it later. I honestly love him so much that I am willing to wait for the rest of my life(get a vibrator to entertain me in the meantime).

Anywayyyyy I am in pain right now. I just want sex sex sex sex. Like all day all night and I don’t know what to doooooo! SOS