I'm hating life.

I have one son and I really want a second baby. I've had 2 miscarriages and all my friends around me know then rub it in my face that they are pregnant again but getting rid of it. Like. Congrats you get to choose whether you want it or not. My body deletes mine for me. I dont get a choice. Ive given up hope and i just. Hate myself more each month that goes by.