I sent a message to my doctor but could use some advice/input from somebody who’s “been there”.

I started taking birth control (the pill) maybe 3 years ago. I was throwing up every single morning so it didn’t last very long. I had heard about the “thing that goes in your arm” and thought that might be a better option for me. I have now had nexplanon in for 2 years and was planning to get it taken out next year but my depression has really taken over. I’m not myself anymore. I cry to the point of panic attack every single day and I’m OVER IT! I hate that I’m not in control of my emotions anymore. I find myself overthinking situations and getting jealous or angry easily and that is SO not me. I feel like I’m really starting to hate myself. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had insecurities as much as the rest of us but now these insecurities are all I think about and it’s seriously affecting me and my relationships. I’m obviously not 100% sure it’s the nexplanon but i don’t take any other medication.

Do you have any experience with birth control and depression or even depression in general? What helped? What made things worse for you?