Hello ladies.

So I usually have struggled a lot with anxiety during my pregnancy. I am currently 36 weeks, and before pregnancy I have exisiting anxiety and I believe with pregnancy it became worst. I was worried about EVERYTHING and ANYTHING and my mind will drive me crazy as the thought of something super bad happening with the baby. I have been able to enjoy my pregnancy but I have also struggled a lot. I kept myself from doing a lot of things because I was always scared of something going wrong and sometimes I still have that fear. I understand is everything on my mind since this happened all the time before pregnancy too.

With my due date coming up, I have a midwife and have tried to attempt a home birth. I bought everything that I needed and sometimes I feel I won’t even make it to have a home birth. So with this said, my midwife gives me until 42 weeks until she sends me to get induced. I been trying everything since now to help me go into labor naturally. But now the real question is,

that due to my mental health and well being. I can’t go past 40 weeks. I just can’t do it, my mind will go crazy thinking the worst since I always thought going past 40 weeks increase the chances of something going wrong. For me to be stable and not go literally crazy anxious I recognize I can’t go past 40 weeks. This will increase 200% my anxiety and I am scared that will be even worse. So I guess my question is, can I request to my midwife not to let me go past 40 weeks instead of 42? I am allow to make this decision for myself? I am hoping I can because this is a really important matter to me and I want to remain calm this last few weeks I have left🙁