Hello first time posting here. I am a mother of two beautiful boys Soren and Axel. Soren is 6 and Axel was 4. On january 9th was my oldest sons birthday. my youngest son some how found a thumb tack. Without my or my husband's knowledge he put it in his mouth and inhaled it. Long story short I had to pull the plug on my baby on january 17th. Most traumatic experience of my life.I miss him so bad he was a mommas boy to the core. But I miss having a baby. my home and heart feel so empty. I know the baby wont be axel. Not replacing him. Am i crazy? I'm 30. I have time right? but I need something. I'd love for some input especially from mommas who have lost their children. I had 2 miscarriages before soren. But this pain is so much worse. Not saying any loss isnt painful it all freaking hurts. Also for any mommas get rid of tacks. Not worth it. We were past the putting things in his mouth. Thank you!!