I'm currently 9 weeks pregnant with my second (my partners third) child. He has a son from a previous relationship and we have a daughter together. My partner would quite like this to be our last baby as he is approaching 40 (he's 13 years older than me).

I would be lying if I said I don't really hope this baby is a boy as I would love a little boy of my own too. Obviously if it's a girl she will still be loved beyond belief and I will feel absolutely awful about it but I'm worried about gender disappointment.

My partner has said that if it's a girl he wouldn't mind having another one to try for a boy but I know deep down he'd like to stop after this one. I feel awful because I know there are so many women out there hoping for one baby regardless of gender.

Surely I can't be the only one secretly hoping for a certain gender.