Gender problems

Has anyone else found out they were having one gender even though they were hoping so desperately for the other? I feel like as soon as I found out from my harmony test that it was the opposite of what I wanted I’ve just not been excited about this pregnancy anymore. I feel so guilty for feeling that way because this baby is perfectly healthy and I am happy and grateful for that. Idk I probably shouldn’t even post this but I’m just looking for help I guess since my whole family is beating me up (verbally) for feeling this way. Please leave your rude comments to yourself because I already feel terrible enough.