Today marks another day of a faint positive and *not*pregnant. about 4 months of the same vvfl. And the best part, my periods have suddenly become irregular as hell 🥲. my periods have been coming 6-11 days late these few months.

No cramping, back pain at most. and what a surprise, tissue. pinkish, grayish, tissue passing each period. not my usual clots. 3 months in a row of very late, not heavy, tissue passing.

I've miscarried before. I've seen tissue come out of my body before. this is not normal period clots.

Of course as well ive seen the ER and called my obgyn. December 5th when i bled after my first vvvfl, i went to the ER. they took a blood test and said it was below 1 and to ignore the First Response tests. so i did, briefly. My fiance was concerned they didnt do and ultrasound and asked that i called the obgyn. My anxious dumbass didnt for a while. and now here i am. another faint line.

vvvfl. pink and there.

I'm mostly just venting my anxieties so i can actually have some courage and ask for an ultrasound. I called the OBGYN a month ago and told them my situation and they brushed me off saying that an ultrasound is not needed. I'll listen if I'm supposed to but my fiance keeps conveying to me that the docs are incompetent and i need to advocate for myself by demanding one.... but I'll be honest. I'm down right terrified. Where do i begin? how do i deal with the judgement in both scenarios..? The scenario where ive been getting faint positives for no reaaon and im stressing about nothing *to a doctor no less*

i do not look forward to that judgement.

And the worst judgement of all. The tests mean something. My symptoms mean something and ive had zero prenatal care other than vitamins for just in case. i feel horrified.

Okay, vent time for the day over. goodnight everyone! I hope you guy's day is going a lot smoother than this BS 🤣🥲

As I have been asked to show what mean, here you go! VVVfl.... barely noticeable in pictures. Same kind of lines for a few months now.