Idk about you but lying is as bad as cheating when it comes to lying about an emotional affair

First time was a nasty girl that I told him she’s clearly not your friend, you’re just giving her the attention and she’s soaking it up leaving you as an option. “He ended it”

Second time it was his long time friend, he was talking bad about me when I was pregnant and hormonal. He lied to me about what he didn’t know is I heard the whole conversation through the baby camera. Until I couldn’t take it anymore. “He ended it”

Now this time. I’m not one to look at people’s phones.. especially because I have given him this last chance to prove himself worthy of the trust. But Something burned my hand to grab it....he was calling his friend he’s known since 15 “bb” and “sweetie” and I love you imy and she was demanding him to call her back.. this is all from 3 months ago...

A little back story, this man is someone that if you met him you’d think he has the most purest heart.

I’m still in shock at how stupid I am for blaming myself because of my hormones and because of money. But this whole time it’s because he was venting to someone else instead of talking to me..

Our daughter is 1 1/2 .. I don’t want her to grow up with her parents split up because personally that’s just my choice.

I just don’t know what to do or think at this moment. I know my daughter is worth giving him another chance but I just don’t know if he will try to be better.

No one will change unless the desire to change comes from within.

Im in pain 😔