Since having my baby I have been having really bad postpartum depression and anxiety. But I try to push through.. my boyfriend works 12 hours a days 4 days a week. He got an offer to work 8 hours for 5 days.. but the times are different. Usually he’s out at 7pm. His new hours would be 2-11. I want him to not kill himself but I feel like it’s going to be more on my end. I like that he’s out at 7 now because he helps me with our daughters nighttime routine. If he worked until 11 on top of the many things I do on a regular day I just feel like that adds on. ( her nighttime routine is like my break, he does her bath and I get to relax ) he told me I should put her in daycare if I can’t handle it but I just feel like I’m a human? Don’t I have the right to be overwhelmed? To be stressed? I beg him to do laundry on his days off to help me and he doesn’t which leads to the clothes piling up so now I have to do double, plus our babies, plus clean and cook and take care of my baby. Is that not ALOT? I hate that when I talk to him about it he just makes me feel like a horrible mom because I’m overwhelmed. It’s not my child, it’s all the cleaning, laundry, complaining from my parents - I will TRY to put my daughter in the living room so I can finally eat something and the second she cries my mom wants me to get her.. mind you my mom is sitting there doing nothing. I guess I just get mad when I’m doing these all day, ask people to just help me out a little and they don’t so now I’m doing EVERYTHING. Because I’m doing everything I get tired and frustrated but I guess that’s NOT allowed?