Back on pill after 5 years ..

Hello !!!!

I have jumped back on the pill after 5 years. Tbh, I f&@king hated it. The only reason I was on it was to regulate my period. In the 2 years or so I was taking the pill, (as some of you can relate) my mood swings were extremely high, felt nauseas, I found myself putting on weight quicker (in my boobs and other places), I was turned off the smell of meat (I literally couldn’t eat it) and had a low libido.

Once I stopped the pill, I felt better, although my period was on and off for years - one year it was fine and regular, the other year was very irregular, and last year I didn’t have it for a whole ass year. This is when the dr told me I should reconsider the pill.

I was so hesitant as I knew how the pill completely changed me. I didn’t want any problems in the future so after careful consideration, I jumped back on it. It’s only been like a week and a half, I know it’s still early but I have flashbacks of what it was like the first time I took the pill 🤣. I can’t eat ANYTHING without forcing it down, I cant even eat meat again. The smell turns me the fuck off. I can only eat fruit , chocolate and takeaway 🤣🥴 Is there anyway I can help myself stay calm and collected?!!!! Literally all I can think about is me feeling sick and nauseas all day because of the pill. Even when I workout, or go to work , I feel sick and no distraction can make the feeling go away!!! 😭😭😭😭🥺 sorry for the life story lmao 😩