So lately I’ve been crazy horny. Probably doesn’t help that I read the erotica books lol my husband has been pretty depressed with some stuff happening in our lives. We’ve lost pregnancies and are childless. Watching others get what we so desperately want. On top of the fact that he works ridiculous amount of hours of hard outdoor labor and has a horribly long drive to work. So he barely gets any sleep which obviously affects it too.

He’s just never in the mood. If I initiate it it can happen (on the weekends of course) but if I don’t then it just doesn’t happen. It’s tiring trying to do it all the time. Makes me feel unwanted. I’m a very sexual person. I have a dirty mind, love dirty talking and touching. There’s just nothing with him and its been so difficult.

We’ve talked about it but with the depression and lack of sleep during the week , I get it , it’s just very very hard for me 😔 . He’s goes to different location for jobs so I know it won’t last but the depression over being childless I’m not sure when that’ll change.