Maybe my friend complaining about being tired when she has help with her child literally all the time has triggered me today. Shes my best friend i love her but she complains so much when she has all the help in thr world anyone around her will drop what their doing to come take her kid or watch her kid etc they always get to go out on dates etc. heres the thing im genuinely happy for her, truly no mom should go without help and im glad she doesn’t ever have to feel the way i feel. It often triggers me tho cuz literally i have no help. My husband is the absolute best in the world but he works a ton and im not complaining because he provides above and beyond for us. But mentally its fucking hard especially after having our second a couple months ago. We haven’t been alone since December 2019, i havent gotten a break besides the night I spent at the hospital giving birth which really isn’t a break. The anxiety was way worse first time around because everything was so new and loss of sleep was like a shock to my body. I guess it really hurts because we have family all around us but no one checks in or stops by not even after i gave birth did anyone see if we needed anything or make a home cooked meal. I know that its no ones job but my mom especially acts like she does so much for me when she does nothing and it makes me anxiety worse. I know im jealous of how my friends and sil have it postpartum compared to me and i dont want to be but shit im exhausted especially with covid and never going anywhere it has accelerated my anxiety. This is all over the place im venting out my thoughts because i guess i have no one else to say it to. Being a mom is the most important thing to me I truly go above and beyond for my kids thats one thing im sure of but i feel like i could be a better mom if maybe i just had a couple small breaks here and there. I think it also sucks because my sil just had a baby and textes me all the time for help with things questions i give her good advice send her things buy her things etc, i never get a thank you a text back or hey how are u holding up. Just sucks all around.