Just got back from my initial prenatal visit. Hard to believe eatlier today i was looking at my <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">nurture</a> app, reading about being 12 weeks and 3 days and nearlybin the second trimester. I hadntvhad an ultrasound since i was 6.5 weeks with my RE, who said, 'congratulations, you did it!" and i got to hear the heartbeat.

My husband accompanied me today to my first prenatal visit. We were beyond excited. Then i had the transvaginal ultrasound and my husband was getting ready to video on his phone. The obgyn moved the monitor to the baby, and i was overjoyed. But then she appeared perplexed and said, "I'm just looking for the heartbeat." She moved the stick around for a few moments, then said, "i have some bad news, im not hearing a heartbeat. I need to get a second doctor to confirm." The second doctor arrived and viewed the ultrasound and nodded in agreement. Mybobgyb stated the baby was also measuring at only 11 weeks when it should be 12, so it likely died then.

She allowed us 10 minutes to ourselves where of course i sobbed and my husband consoled me. She then talked about options for miscarrying. I'll likely do a D&C.

It feels so surreal. I had no warning signs, no bleeding. My pregnancy test is still blaring positive, though i know it's because my baby that died is still in me. Its the worst feeling ive ever had.

I had to get this off my chest, as i kbow im not alone and there are many of you who've been through or are going through similar loss of an unborn child.

Any words on how you got through, and/are gettig through this loss would be much appreciated ♡