I’m late a week and currently waiting to test later today.. (order test strips which will arrive later in the evening)

I’m petrified of being pregnant while having already bad anxiety & panic attacks that hit when I have to leave my safe zone (home)

Does anyone has or had dealt with this during their pregnancy? How did you get through it? What advice can you give me they’ll help if I am pregnant.. I would really love to keep the baby but not if my anxiety or panic attacks will harm the baby cause my heart rate goes from 70s to 120s when I go anywhere including just to the sidewalk near traffic to get my mail ...

I have meds but currently am not taking them cause when the pandemic happened my therapist closed their doors for 6months which threw me off my meds since I couldn’t get a hold of anyone to refill my script.. I have them but don’t take them. I’m back to the beginning when I first got prescribed the meds and I’m scared to take them cause I remember how my body was in those first 3 months..

Also I occasionally take a benzodiazepine (Ativan) when I have severe panic attacks but it’s pretty rare.. I know I can’t take this if I am pregnant :(