- I hate the fact that whenever I need someone to talk to I choose the people who I can trust first but when they are busy I'll choose someone else that will listen to me but they are always the wrong people. I give so many girls that are from the area I live in the benifit of the doubt and i feel like they just turn around and laugh at me for doing that. Why am I so f-up? All I want to do now is cry and curl into a ball and never come out.