I had a guy friend. We were just friends. We’re co workers and have to work closely with eachother due to the job. Being around him was like having a best friend. I’ve had other guy friends before, and I was excited that this guy was in a relationship and so I didn’t have to worry about anything. Him and I even had a talk about how we are JUST friends.

Well I pretty much havnt worked since October. First due to covid leaves and then in December I had to go out in disability. Him and I still chat from time to time but I honestly was starting to feel like he was forgetting about me. I really miss my coworkers 🥺 then. Out of the fucking blue it seems, he starts flirting with me abit. I didnt catch it at first and thought maybe his jokes were just not being well thought out. Then boom, the other night he admits he’s flirting and is letting me know if I ever wanted to sleep with him he’d want to as well. Wtttttfffffff. My first reaction was concern for his mental well being because he’s in a relationship where last I knew he wanted to get married to her and He really did not strike me as a douche or anything. He’s acts a little young sometimes but he’s the romantic type you know? I turned down is offer and my heads been spinning ever since. And tonight, I want to cry. I really enjoyed his friendship and technically I still have to act like his friend due to the nature of the job but I feel like he just ruined everything. He put thoughts in my head that don’t belong. He reassured me our friendship really was just a friendship so many times. In fact one time a co worker made a joke inappropriate joke about us and I was like cool I’m out and left the conversation immediately and I heard him demand he go apologize to me right away (to which he did lol) and so I felt secure in being friends. I havnt even been around!

I’m getting so angry. And I want to stop thinking about it. I feel like I’m obsessing. I did have pure O OCD and I’m unable to process this correctly so I’m just kinda venting on here. What. The. Actual. FUCK.

*for the record his girl knows we are friends and is fine with us chatting and being friends. That’s the first thing I set straight when we became friends*

Example of his reassurance from a couple months ago...