Fed up

This might sound stupid or a bit pethetic but I just feel I need to let of abit of steam.. Just totally giving in trying to conceive for now, I'm always looking forward to the next month when I come of my period hoping I'm going to get a positive test after over 2 years of trying it's starting to really wear me down. The doctors iv seen and the specialist iv seen don't seem to be listening or helping me and it just seems like one bad month after another. So for now iv decided and told my partener that I think it's best we give up for awhile. It's just so sad cause it's what me and him both want so bad and I hate not only letting myself down but him to I feel he deserves so much more than what I can give him. Huffffff feel stressed and very down :(