it's mainly my tummy and hips wide mid reif section

Makes me wanna cry the thought of it but then something just doesn't click or im just lazy I want nothing more to not feel fat and ugly but yet I binge and eat rubbish and don't exercise so it's me to blame.

Most nights up up every 2-3 hours with baby, I still brrastfeed every now and then its been like this a year now I'm so tired to have motivation.

I just dont know what to do to help myself

Just wondered if anyone had been through this?