My bf and I have came to the conclusion that if I got pregnant that we’ll go with the flow. But it’s been about 3 months now. And nothing. I didn’t think I’d be so emotionally bummed out. My bf noticed symptoms yesterday but I told him it’s my period. Wasn’t trying to get to excited but his excitement got me.

I wake up this morning and there she is in all her red glory.

He went to work. I haven’t told him. But I can’t stop crying. It’s frustrating. Never in a million years did I think I’d be in a position to have another(been a single mom for 7 years prior) and then I met my bf 2 years ago. And given me hope that I can be a mom of 2. He has 3 from his previous. And isn’t scarred or nervous about having another.

But now it’s feeling like I won’t get that chance.

The one month I didn’t want to see Mother Nature.