I guess I’m posting just to say what I’ve experienced and get it out and maybe just some kindness and support.

My baby is one month old now and she is the most precious and beautiful thing. However I feel like I’ve gone from a easy pregnancy into a unexpected labour with constant things happening since -

1 I was PROMS although I called the unit they didn’t think it was my water and didn’t tell me to go in which resulted a few days later in an induction. I was lucky my body was actually in labour albeit silently and I had a vaginal delivery with just 2 hours of established labour.

2 we were let home 24 hours later but by day 3 I noticed little one had some really red and mucus patches on her crevices. We went to hosp and had to stay in for 6 days and she was on 2 strong anti b intravenously and then five more days at home orally

3 that cleared but the anti b have given her thrush badly in her bum and now this is taking a long time to clear despite creams from dr, airing her, changing nappy as often as possible and cleaning with cotton and water (no wet wipes)

Very hard when breast feeding as her stools are plentiful and always very soft which adds to the issue.

Finally I had a tingly lip a few days back and have previously been a sufferer of cold sores, so I’m also avoiding kissing her or contact near my face. An open cold sore has luckily not formed in 72 hours.

I’m washing my hands so much to keep any infections at bay that they are now so sore and cracked. I just want to love and enjoy her but struggling to feel like I can keep her safe from infection as it’s been one thing after the other. I feel like I’m failing ...