Feeling bad

I currently just had my second transfer fail. I found out on Friday and am completely devastated. I couldn’t even call my mom to tell her, I made my husband do it. But there are a few people that I have told I was getting my transfer done and now they are texting me asking how I feel/if I found out I’m pregnant yet and to be honest, I just haven’t answered anyone’s texts. I know it’s rude because they are being nice trying to check up on me, but I’m not ready to talk about it yet.

This is the part of infertility that sucks. I opened up and shared our journey with friends/family but when it comes to bad news, I just shut down.

My first transfer I handled better because I knew it was a long shot of it working the first time.

But my second, I had 3 days worth of positive pregnancy tests and then they went completely negative.

I feel bad not answering anyone but mentally I can’t do it.

Anyone go through this? Am I being a bad friend?