help : (

I have a vacation in six weeks to florida. it’ll be spring break and i’m gonna be so self conscious about myself and be over paranoid about my boyfriend looking at others girls and what not. i hate the feeling i get when i notice it or the feeling i’m not pretty enough. how do i get myself in order before then : ( i’ve lost 45 pounds and yet can’t feel any better about myself. i wanna get a bikini but i’m too scared