Why NOT me??

I hate to question my fate... but I pray and ask god all the time why I cannot conceive the child I’ve been longing for, for sooo long. The reoccurring frustration and disappointment month after month of seeing nothing but negative tests but swearing up and down that this months symptoms are so much different than the last, this has gotta be it. But it isn’t 🤦🏼‍♀️ This morning I saw this pop up on my FB, and I just couldn’t help but cry and feel sick to my stomach. How could someone feel this way. My baby wouldn’t want for anything, I just don’t understand why ANYTHING anymore, sorry for the sad rant guys. I just hate to see things like this.