Depressed over boobs

My baby was in NICU for 2 wks. I tried tried tried everything to breastfeed. I still am but not getting the amount I need. I know this because i can't EBF because of work demands and can't pump in replacement either because it's just not possible with my schedule. When I do get a chance to pump it's like 1 ml or less from both boobs after 20 mins. Sometimes 2 ml. I produced 5 ml the first freking time I pumped I was so excited but clueless and didn't realize I needed to pump as often .

I've bought 3 diff pumps (first one sucked. Second is better. Also a travel one which I barely even use cuz work and driving n everything). Been to a lactation consultant once in the beginning but haven't since my supply has gone down.

I've been fighting with myself about giving up or not. It's just so deeply rooted in me to accomplish breastfeeding I've been so depressed over it. But I'm also struggling every day just to be a new mom, go to work and juggle it all.

Can I get my supply to increase ?

What is the difference between formula and breastmilk ... I feel like a bad mom not feeding my baby breastmilk and like a failure :(

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Mi

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Do not feel like a failure! How your baby is fed has no bearing on that. With my first daughter I was so adamant I would exclusively breastfeed and I put so much pressure on myself. When I finally introduced it it was such a relief and I was so mad at myself for waiting so long and being so strict. We were both happier.Yes breast milk is full of goodness and if you whatever you’ve been able to pump is doing her good but it’s ok to switch or to mixed feed it is becoming too hard.

Al

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It’s can be so hard! Especially with such a busy schedule. If you are really dedicated you can bring your supply back up. Latch baby as often as possible when at home. Pump as often as possible. I don’t know what kind of work you do but your employer had to give you pumping breaks. You could also pump in the car on your commute with a hands free or battery pump. People also say power pumping can help raise your supply. If nothing works then you can do combination feeding. Any little bit of breastmilk is great! Don’t feel like you are a bad mum if you can’t exclusively breastfeed your baby gets a lot more from you than that. Good luck!