Yesterday I received the news that no one ttc wants to hear especially after so many high hopes, money spent, injections, not being yourself the last past month or two from all the hormones and crazy schedules, perfect embryos, and great levels overall. After it all, my first fresh

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cycled failed to implant. As anyone, I believe I was hit with every emotion of grief in the book. Mainly because I just couldn’t understand what made it not want to stick and there’s the part of grief where you start to get scared and wonder is there something else wrong with me other than the PCOS I was diagnosed with. And I instantly wanted to save myself from feeling like this again. Even hearing all of the stories of success after the first try and even the doctor saying it’s just always a 50/50 chance, there is no real settling feeling. After the tears I I prayed for the strength and direction as well as my support team and God revealed to me to not give up. I have 5 frozen embryos left and what’s so significant to me about that is that the number 5 means “grace”. God’s grace is sufficient. TTC no matter what route you take is a very emotional and trying but Faith is the substance of all things.As I encourage myself I hope that it gives others some peace as well. I have found myself stronger than I thought through all of this and I’m determined to reach my promise. Even with some tears I’m ready to hop back in that next cycle with the belief that my baby is waiting to be “thawed out’.