It’s been 2 weeks since I found out my husband was spending a great deal of money on myfreecams and onlyfans. Of course I’m hurt and I almost left him but I’m 6 months pregnant with no where to go. He gave me access to all his accounts and now I’m in control of his credit cards and he’s even locked both of them. I cry constantly because we hadn’t had sex in so long and I was always suspicious. He has agreed to go to counseling and try to work things out. I’m upset because he acts everyday like is a normal day. And sometimes I’m mad at my self because I do too. Like if none of it never happened. But I even feel guilty when I see him being sad? Wtf is wrong with me. He hurt me so bad but some days I feel like I’m 100% over it (even though I know I’m not.). I just don’t want him to think I’ve fully forgiven him because I haven’t. He broke my trust and I’m just tired of living like it never happened and I feel like it’s my fault.