I suffer from PPD I’ve been pregnant back to back for the past 3 years and the father of my kids is just verbally abusive. I’m a stay at home

Mom with NOTHING but my kids. I have nothing

I don’t want this to be a potty party but I just have no one to talk to. His family thinks he’s this amazing guy and my family as well cause he’s a different person but I’m just TIRED TIRED OF HIM TREATING ME LIKE SHIT JUST TIRED . There are so many days where I just wish I didn’t wake up and this would end my misery and suffering. I would t have to fight for custody of my kids or fight about money for my kids or who my kids are around. I just want to give up sometimes and just wish I never woke up again or someone would just run me over. He has wasted my time for 5 years and done nothing but just make sure I have nothing I feel like I’m worth nothing and no one wants me puts me down degrades me. I’m just so depressed he has cheated on me while I was pregnant before I mean he’s not the person I fell in love with. He’s a monster he’s become a monster I hate my life I just wish I was dead every day