Super anxious, super hopeless.

I’m 9 days DPO and my period is due on Monday. With my son I didn’t find out I was pregnant with him until 14 weeks so I don’t really remember what week symptoms started. But I see people getting positive super early and having symptoms super early and I feel like nothing has really changed with my body and it’s making me feel like I’m gonna get another negative test. Any symptoms I do have I feel I’m just making up or exaggerating in my head just like all the other times.

I’m waiting and hoping my period doesn’t come and then test. But I’ve been off bc since August/September of 2020 and nothing. I got pregnant with my almost 5 y.o. the very same month I stopped bc so I’m just super super worried and discouraged that I’m still not pregnant this time around.

Please sprinkle baby dust my way!