Do you ever recover?

Jodie • TTC our 🌈🌈 for 23 month

After losing my baby girl at 18 weeks almost two years ago I still find myself riddled with both grief and guilt. I can’t stop thinking how my life should be, how I let her down and could’ve done more. At the 2 year point I think people expect you to be over it, especially when that child didn’t make it to full term, but I just can’t move forward and I feel trapped. Intense overwhelming periods of sadness and exhaustion. Am I allowed to grieve forever?