I got an abortion November of 2019. To this day I’m still paralyzed, I really have not been able to live a regular life since. I’ve tried to get help but I still feel like the only thing left to do is die. My birthday is next week and if I can’t catch a break I just feel that’s the best time. It’s been awful and I just want one day to not cry and feel so guilty. I’ve never hated anything as much as I hate myself.