Failed pregnancy and a rant...
Yesterday I was told I am having a failed pregnancy. My hcg levels went from 20, to 220, to 151 and now down to 86. Me and my boyfriend were trying for 7 months and this has devastated us and I am still yet to have a miscarriage or d&c, don't know which one yet until next week so I am full of all kinds of emotion right now and the main one is angry.
I am angry that there are women who have drunken one night stands and get pregnant with no complications. And also those types of women who are afraid to lose their partner and 'trap' them by getting pregnant. Or women who got pregnant unplanned and don't even give a fuck about their kids and palm them off with whoever will babysit and go out and get drunk and have sex with strangers and end up pregnant again! Why is it the people who actually want a baby have the most problems and suffering?? It's just not fair.
We really wanted this baby. I knew that the chances of miscarriage are high but nothing has prepared us for how horrible it would be to be told we are having a failed pregnancy. She didn't even put it nicely like 'I'm so sorry to inform you that at this point your pregnancy is considered a failed pregnancy' it was just 'your pregnancy has failed'.
I'm so so upset and angry. I know this is part of the process but I am scared I am going to lash out at someone.
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