I just found out I’m pregnant last Thursday. I haven’t been able to get a blood test confirmation until Monday. So all I know is that I have four positive tests. I’m so nervous because I had a loss last Fall. Anyways.. I haven’t really been able to see my family because of the pandemic. My mom is honestly the worst. I’m really seeing it now. When I had the miscarriage last Fall, I had to comfort her because she said she was hurt. And then she told me next time I’m pregnant not to tell her until I’m 12 weeks to spare her feelings. And the list goes on. Anytime I’m upset about something she gaslights me and tells me that I make her feel like her feelings don’t matter. Last night I told her I’m possibly pregnant and she literally said “oh great your pregnant.” Made it about herself and how now she probably won’t get to see us for longer bc of the pandemic...didn’t even let me talk and have any kind of response or reaction to that and then she hung up on me. Then she texted me about how I never care about her feelings and she can’t be happy for herself about this pregnancy. She knows what I’ve been through with the previous miscarriage and then she reacts like that?? I’m having a hard time not hating her. I am so sick and tired of her treating me like her little scapegoat. This is the second time she’s lashed out on me in two weeks. I’m just so upset. I was excited to tell her and now it’s ruined..I don’t know. Sometimes I just want her out of my life. I wish I had a mom that would be excited for me. She’s making me second guess everything and now I’m even more worried about this pregnancy because I spent a lot of time upset and crying last night.