First off, please no negative judgement from anyone. I've been through enough as it is.

Here's the deal. It's the same old one night stand gone wrong. Few weeks ago I had slept with a guy I work with. It was a bad decision, obviously, but it happens. The guy and I are pretty good friends and decent work buddies, so things weren't awkward afterwards. It was just a one time thing. Just to see what it was like, I suppose. Being young and dumb, we were both not in our right mindsets (if you know what I mean🚬 I hardly ever do it, just in severe times of stress) so we didn't use a condom. Just the old pull out method. And I had always thought I couldn't get pregnant (people I dated earlier didn't pull out a few times and no results *super dumb*). But I was wrong.

Now, today I am 7 weeks and 2 days along. Didn't find out until a week ago when I went in for an ultrasound. After telling him, he wasn't angry or in denial, just taken off guard and worried like I was. He just said we'll talk about it. But since then either I'm busy working while he isn't, or he will be busy working, or we both would be. So neither of us have yet had a day to actually discuss what to do.

My first thought was abortion. I know there are people out there who are strongly against it (my family included) and I do apologize if it offends you. I know I can't take care of a child because I can barely take care of myself. I'm 19 years old, single, have a minimum wage job, share an apartment with a roommate, and have no car. On top of that, I was going to join the air force right in January. So it's not like I was just going to bum around for the next few years. I actually had goals to better myself so whenever the time comes to settle down, I can give my kids a comfortable lifestyle.

But each day passes by and I feel myself growing more attached to the little creature. Some days I honestly want to just keep it. I know I'll feel guilty otherwise. But most days I know it's in my best interest and the baby's that I should just wait until I'm actually ready and responsible and financially stable enough to take on that challenge.

And then there's my family. They have no clue yet, but I've heard them talk plenty of times when my sister became pregnant. They in no way, shape, or form believe in abortion or adoption. Even if they'll be disappointed either way, abortion is just the biggest no-no to them.

So, I'm pretty torn. I know I should have an abortion. But some days I just wonder if I'd be able to go through with it. Or how it'll affect me physically and mentally later in life. I'm well aware of the consequences for all of my options, by the way. Not only have I done tons of research, but I also have spoken with a professional as well as virtual moms/people who have had abortions. I suppose I am posting this because I would just like to hear a wider range of opinions from people who have been or currently are in my position somehow. What would/did you do? How would/did you go about it?