I feel like I’m constantly conflicted between calling the nurse line and waiting for my 2nd appointment (March 23 in one week).

I’ve dealt with on and off brown discharge since about 7 weeks. I had called once and they basically told me no worries unless it’s bright red.

My first appointment I saw a beautiful ultrasound that measured right on track and had a heartbeat at 136.

I had a miscarriage back in October. Seeing the brown discharge is just an instant trigger for me and takes me mental state way down for a while. I’ve basically convinced myself that it’s not going to stick. But at the same time I wonder why I think this.

For ladies dealing with the stress of first trimester I pray for you and me as well. There’s things about pregnancy I wish woman would be more open about. The mental toll is crazy.