So, I'm the 2nd oldest of 6 kids. We were raised by our mother and step father until I was 13-14ish. From the age of 3-14 my step dad raped and molested my sister and I. (We are the two that are not biologically his). As if that wasn't bad enough, my mom and step father were also heavy into drugs and alcohol. There was a lot of abuse and neglect for many years. 

Fast forward to present day, I'm 30 years old and married to an amazing man and we have two amazing boys together. Last year (2014), I went to my mom's house for Easter and my son almost picked up a meth pipe on her porch. This belonged to my 19 year old brother who lives with her. That was the last time I took my kids there and I refuse to associate with most of my family. 2/4 of my brothers are into serious drugs and the other 2 smoke weed. (I talk to the two weed smokers). Then, I found out my mom is smoking weed (I'm sure that's not all she does, there have been pill rumors for years). So, I cut her out of our lives for the most part. 

Well, now most of my siblings (even the ones I am willing to talk to) have (in my opinion) Shunned me. They think that I have an "I'm better than you attitude" because I don't want my kids around this. Now, only my sister is coming to my kids' birthday party! I'm very hurt by this. 

Sorry, I just really needed to vent. It sucks when I feel like I'm the black sheep of my family. Also, I feel like my in-laws kinda look down on me because of my families actions. I'm sure this is just me being self-conscious about their behaviors and life choices.