I had a MMC in 2018 and then had my rainbow in 2019. I'm a little over 5 weeks pregnant again now and I had 'forgotten' just HOW hard pregnancy after loss is.

It doesn't matter to my brain that I had a healthy pregnancy and baby following my MMC, I am still a huge bundle of anxiety all of the time. Sometimes, it still rains after rainbows

It doesn't help that I've had some mild spotting. Even though I KNOW how normal and common it is. I have an early scan booked in but it's not for another 2 weeks

I have a lot of trauma from my MMC, the way the whole situation unfolded from beginning to end was extremely distressing and even after counselling and some time passing, I haven't fully come to terms with it

I feel so lonely in this, so I've come on here to connect with my follow rainbow Mama's

Hope you're all doing okay 🌈💕