How do you even get excited about being pregnant

Roxanne • 4 angel babies 👶 mumma to one little boy rainbow baby 🌈 rainbow baby #2 on board

Had 3 back to back miscarriages before we had our rainbow baby in January 2020. Had another miscarriage in November 2020 lost at 8 weeks and now this. I cried because I’m so anxious. I just can’t get excited.