Cant freaking orgasm😩

Y’all I’ve lived 21 years and have never had a fucking orgasm... maybe I have but I don’t think so... both my boyfriend and myself can’t get me to for shit... it’s like I can’t take clitoral stimulation because it’s too much for me. It’s like I instantly have to stop. It’s not painful just too much for me so I really don’t enjoy clitoral stimulation at all... penetration doesn’t do much for me either... I always feel bad for my boyfriend because he feels like I don’t enjoy our sex... I do enjoy it but like I can’t physically show that I’m having an orgasm... I’ve felt like I get to a peak but once I hit that peak I absolutely have to stop... I’ve tried to keep going but it just dies off... it’s ridiculously annoying tbh... I can’t squirt or physically cum and I never feel like a rush like everyone says... I’m not sure what to do... I’m not really interested in toys or vibrators and it seems like masterbating hasn’t gotten me very far either... ugh please help😩 like like to experience at least 1 in my life...