Results...

Just heard back on results from the karotype (chromosome tests of baby).... They are pos for genetic anomaly. Dr is ordering more tests for me, highly suspicious of translocation from me. I am devestated! This is my fault (both of the miscarriages!). 
My dream was to, is to, have a family with kids..... I feel like the dr said it all in that, "you can't change or fix genes". 
I know more tests are pending... But I am at a loss right now..... So sad, scared, mad, angry, beyond words. And baby one should be born Dec 21. Ugh