Advice

Just discovered my husband has been taking testosterone oral supplements for the last 9 months before, during and after our miscarriage we had late September.....this whole time he has been saying “we’ll keep trying” every month when my period comes instead of pregnancy. The whole time I thought something was wrong with me (even after my OB cleared me).. He says he really wants us to keep trying but I’m so hurt. I feel betrayed and lost. Idk what to do. I don’t even want him around me right now, and that is literally never the case. My heart is so heavy and I am so so sad. Please. Only real advice, no bashing. I just need to figure out how to move on and trust that he truly wants us to try....

Update: For those asking, testosterone drastically reduces sperm count. And no, he decided to take OTC oral testosterone supplements on his own to increase his gains. I agree, it is his body, just as mine is mine. However, when he chooses to take something knowing it will greatly reduce our chances of getting pregnant, that is a problem.