The let down

I haven't been very hopeful lately. If anyone has read my post before it's been quite the ride. On March 17th I had my second to last IUI that my insurance will provide. Not pay for, but order and perform. I was supposed to start my period yesterday. There has been absolutely no sign of ant flow. I'm not going to lie today I started getting hopeful. My nipples are sensitive, my cervix is very soft and high. I thought for sure these could be signs of being pregnant. About 20 minutes ago I started spotting. The tears are real. So much so I feel sick. I just wish my body would work. I wish this didn't have to be 6 years of fertility treatments, we have one more chance with an IUI. After that my insurance will not help us anymore. They said they will refers to IVF at an outside clinic and we are on our own. I know a lot of people do it. But the financial struggle is serious for us. I am trying to stay hopeful, but it's hard. I'm sorry if anyone reading this is in the same situation. I pray for us all everyday. I wouldn't wish these issues and heartbreak on anyone. Good bless y'all!